Not meant to be…

You are too skinny. Are you stressed? Why do you starve yourself? You have too many stretchmarks, you should try this cream. look how your boobs sag, have you considered a boobjob?! You were so gorgeous before childbirth, right now, I don’t know, You are too undesirable! Too unattractive! Have you tried these pills? Oooh,

A Note To My Younger Self.

Dear younger me, It has been long since we met, a lot has changed since. There are so many things I want to tell you, it’s hard to know where to start. I want you to know, you have a whole life ahead of you, my love. Well, it’s evident since it’s the older you

The sun will rise again.

I see you. I know you are feeling alone right now. I know you are feeling stuck, delusional, and probably empty. So empty that you don’t think anyone can see the pain you’re going through. The emptiness you feel is bearing down on you, closing in on you, scraping and scratching at the walls of

This thing called life.

Life is a series of events. Some are exciting while others are heartbreaking. There are bright days that bring nothing but joy to the soul while there are days that seem never to end. We are often told it’s always dark before dawn but how can we forget the rainbow after the rain? Life is

Grief and Acceptance.

As hard as I’ve tried to avoid it, I keep playing back to that night. That night when I saw him let loose. That night when I saw him the happiest. That night when he gave me random hugs and asked to dance with him. That night when he made fun of me and asked

Broken Vessel.

When I first saw your name pop up on my husband’s phone, I didn’t think anything about it. I knew he had female friends and colleagues, so I brushed it off. But then, he started acting suspicious, and over time, changed his password, he would ignore your calls when I was there, and hide his

Dear Postpartum body,

I feel ashamed for been mean towards you. I feel embarrassed that I haven’t always spoke words of grace to you, for not acknowledging your sacrifices. Today is the day I choose to love you like I love the handsome boy you gave me. I will have eyes filled with grace that will focus on

Almost there

Happy 37 weeks baby girl. Right about now, I know you are exhausted and anxious to meet the mini you. I know you are also pretty worried and super terrified, in fact you would be crazy not to be! What kind of mum will you be? Will you be able to change a diaper? What

I SEE YOU.

Hey you. How are you? Let me guess, you are okay. But, is that it, really? Are you sure you don’t want to compose a long paragraph and say how sad and vulnerable you are but you are scared of been judged, and being ‘Okay’ is the only response that comes out naturally? Don’t worry,

It’s September 5th.

Hello 26. I am stuck, should I welcome you to my life or are you supposed to welcome me to your life? Anyway, I am glad you are finally here. Dear 26, my 24th year was the worst year in my life. It was a year that I cried so much and drunk so much.